There is something strange about my personality.
If I'm not immediately good at something, I generally won't do it again. At all.
So this whole sex thing is difficult. And not just literally. But honestly, he does most of the work, so that makes it easier.
What's more awkward is sucking him off. I mean, it's only fair, right? But here's the thing: turns out I'm just not any good at it. I like it, but I don't like (ahem) sucking* at it. And he equates this with not wanting to.
Of course, this doesn't strike him as odd. All but one of his previous partners have disliked doing it.
And that frustrates me.
I want to do it. I like doing it. But I HATE doing it badly.
I need to learn the art of practice makes perfect. And soon.
* No, I don't mean that literally. It's a figure of speech, silly!