There is something strange about my personality.
What? More?
Yes, more.
If I'm not immediately good at something, I generally won't do it again. At all.
So this whole sex thing is difficult. And not just literally. But honestly, he does most of the work, so that makes it easier.
What's more awkward is sucking him off. I mean, it's only fair, right? But here's the thing: turns out I'm just not any good at it. I like it, but I don't like (ahem) sucking* at it. And he equates this with not wanting to.
Of course, this doesn't strike him as odd. All but one of his previous partners have disliked doing it.
And that frustrates me.
I want to do it. I like doing it. But I HATE doing it badly.
I need to learn the art of practice makes perfect. And soon.
* No, I don't mean that literally. It's a figure of speech, silly!
Like anything else, sex takes practice. You wouldn't expect a basketball player or surgeon to be good at doing something the first time he tried.
Keep working on it. You've made the decision that you want to be a former virgin. Now, you have to learn how to do it.
Do you think that girls who did it at 18 were great their first time? If so, you're wrong, wrong, wrong.
They had to learn. So will you.
Everyone is scared and amateurish the first time they do it. Why should you be an exception?
Give yourself a break.
Posted by: Tom | Tuesday, 31 May 2011 at 12:40
Haven't heard from you in a while. How is it coming? Don't leave us hanging.
Posted by: Tom | Thursday, 28 July 2011 at 22:47